Not so hungry hungry.. still hippo ;-)

Well its the end of day three. I must say I'm a little better every day.. yesterday i was ready to chew cardboard at 9 today i made it till 11:30.. lol.. i consider that an improvement as i have yet to find out the nutritional value of cardboard. Yesterday i only got 6 glasses of water down.. today I'm at 8!! And both days i have kept my rule of not eating after 9 in play.. although i have both nights not eaten after 8:30. Monday though.. well.. ehh.. it was okay.. did good on the not eating as much and eating better... but realized at like 10:45 i had just eaten 5 chocolate chips and a piece of bread.. yea i don't know don't ask me.. lol

Its been good though.. this is the time. I can feel it. When i get that hungry feed me now feeling i stop and think.. am i REALLY hungry? or just not REALLY full? usually its option two. So its sucked sometimes but the feelings are fading. Tonight at 8:15 i though i was truly hungry. So i had half a sandwich on whole wheat bread two pieces of turkey and mustard... and 1/2 slice of swiss but hey i counted the points. I bought the swiss before i made the resolution and at least i only used 1/2 slice not a whole one!!

My major goals in starting this (the small ones not the big ones) were to start off by not eating after 9 pm (as this was when i consumed so much) and to drink 8 glasses of water a day (i HATE water.. borrrrinnnnnnnnng) and so far I have. Yes I know its only day three.. but I've been damn good.

Much to my horror of advertising my weight for all to see.. every week I'm going to post this .. I'm weighting in on Mondays... so this is late but i have it at my weight this past Monday...



So there we go. Where I'm starting.. where i want to be.. and my BMI.. which really to most people means nothing... However.. a bmi of that number is considered obese... OBESE!!! I know i'm large but never used that word for me.. but hey .. sometimes the truth hurts.. but sometimes a kick in the gut that hurts like hell is what you need to get you going.

My next big goal is exercise. I've gotten my gazelle out from its storage place since moving. And I'm aiming for 30 minutes per night on it after the kids are in bed. i would really like to do one hour... but i figure focusing on 40 EVERY night is a good starting goal... and no one says i have to stop there!!! And i want to take the kids on a walk three nights per week at least... and once per week to the park that has a trail around it (which is genius since i can see the whole park the whole time and could be there in 1/2 a second) and walk while they play.

Real Good... Real healthy

So in reference to yesterdays post I have been "recipe-ing" all day today. Now I can tell you in the years past I have gotten SOOO fed up with cookbooks that claim to be low fat, or low calorie.. you know what 600 is not a low calorie entre!!! thats just the entre not the whole meal!!! Sure it may be less than the original recipe.. but still.. that should not in my opinion be in a cookbook claiming by the title to be good for you.

I have found that Diabetic cookbooks are really the best way to go as they are truly low cal, low fat, low sugar. All the lows I look for in recipes. I usually load up on books, but (i know mom,... gasp) I have also started renting instead of buying books! So I have created a new blog:
www.realgoodrealhealthy.blogspot.com
In which i am going to put my recipes and new ones i find to try that i consider to fit in the "good for you" category.

So go look, read, cook , comment, suggestions or what worked or what didn't in the comments. Or don't.. i did it for me.. but i hope you will enjoy it too!! ;-)

Hungry Hungry Hippo

So today.. today I'm starting a diet. Kind of Weight watchers kinda not. I don't have the money to actually go to meetings. But that's okay... I can do it (and Mrs. Jo may do it with me). I'm also not going to eat after nine pm. After that time i feel the loneliest and eat then eat again.. oh yea.. and sometimes eat again. But you know.. you always here about "The divorce diet".. PS.. you should see Gigi.. she looks AMAZING... anyway.... my divorce diet lasted about a month.. i couldn't eat hardly at all and what i did i threw up anyway... then the reallllllll divorce "diet" came out. The one where the more lonely or depressed i got, yea you know it, the more i ate. Hence me now being at my largest weight ever. Its making things worse. How can anyone love me until i can totally completely and truly love myself? I know i cant get back to the one time in my life that i actually FELT skinny and attractive... it was during my parents divorce and i weighed all of 107 lbs.. felt amazing.. could wear anything.. and looking back looked sick and anorexic. But i want to loose 60 lbs at least. 60 is my starting goal. So today.. today is the day. No more.. tomorrow, next week, first of the month.. its today people. so now.. I'm a hungry hungry hippo!! and yes I'm allowed to call myself that since I'm dieting. So I'm starving.. but at the same time when i think about it I'm not really hungry I'm just not stuffed at every second of the day. To top that off I've had a on again off again (although mostly on again) migraine for three days. So hungry hungry hippo + migraine = not a totally happy person but you know... it will only take a few days and i will be better. I'll get through it.. and I'm determined too. I will be a much happier person for it.

What else today.. Fred is just killing me.. hes so grown up all the sudden. He came in from the balcony and said.. "Freida wants me for something don't worry mommy.. I'll tell her its night night time" I said okay and waited.. he came back in and said "Oh mommy i need your help" So as i think this is very cute go in there and am talking to Her and Fred says "I know Mommy... here..." And precedes to sing Rock A Bye Baby to her.. in full.. it was THEE most adorable thing EVER............. EVER!!

And as a last parting note.. I'm going tomorrow to sign the loan papers for the retainer for my lawyer. But you know its a good thing too since it will get me credit since i have none since everything was in Dicks name... So look for later posts on how that's going.