What on earth was I thinking??

So today is a first.. I had a delusional moment and asked my sons best friend from school if he could stay the night tonight. He was supposed to arrive at 4 and his mom called at 315 and said they were out and with gas was is okay if they brought him early while they were out.. so he has been here since 3:15... Kole is a very encouragable little 5 year old... especially with his best friend from school.. now add this to my 4 year old combined with the fact that his mom lets him say things that I would NEVER let my kids say.. and oye vay. Kole keeps doing things that he knows are not acceptable just to show off... like throwing a bucket full of cars off of our 2nd story balcony one by one so that i would not know. Or while i was going to the bathroom him sneaking them all outside to pick them up after i distinctly told him NOT to through the door. The friend has said: shut up, damn it, woosy boy, scum bag.. among others.. and that is only in four hours.. I still have to get through all of these kids.. okay only three.. getting to sleep. So pray for me all. pray for me.

To much?

Is it to much to want to be loved?

Wholey, and completely. With ought restrictions. To have someone NEED me. To have some one love me for ME.. now who I was, who they want me to be, or who i could be... but just me. ME.

The meaning of life

Lets see.. how am I doing today... hmm.. well lets see if this sums it up:

The meaning of life: To have a million and one things to do but all that matters is the one thing you forgot to do.

OR

The meaning of life: To have a million and one things to do but all that matters is the one thing that someone forgets to do.

Sorry gals.. not a cheery day today.