Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Wow.. heres a depresing one.. sorry

So I will admit i'm a huge avril lavign fan.. even if i cant spell her name corectly... hehe... She has a song "When Your Gone" Its a great song.. but the video makes me cry.. good cry.. and i guess bad cry a little too. There is a scene with an elderly man who has obviously lost his wife. No... not lost as in.. where are you i'm coming to find you!!.. as In She passed away. No no no.. not far far away.. if you dont get it by now you wont.. .anyway... he looks at her pic and almost looses it.. then later in the song it comes back to him and he opens the closet door, reaches in and brushes his hand across all of her clothes.... then takes a dress out, rubs it on his face, smells it, then crys into it.

I want that. I want someone to love me till i'm old and wrinkly. I want someone to love me so much the thought of not being with me physically hurts. I deserve it too. I think. I know.

Even as i'm writing this i'm thinking to myself.. who am i kidding whos gonna want a fat cow like me? followed by the thought.. OOhh.. there is still some brownie left on my plate.. i beter finish it. How does that work.. How can you feel gross.. have just looked at a pic and saw how fat you were.. then eat a peanut butter brownie??

I know i got loverboy.. but not sure if its gonna go much further.. i think he just has to much in his life right now to have a relationship too... which sucks... and i so was not looking for it... just was a coincidence. A great one... hope it doesnt end.. but hey.. what did gigi say.. If it seems to good to be true... it probably is.

7 comments:

Lainey-Paney said...

Okay, that scene that you are describing, reminds me of a scene from the movie, "Hope Floats" that gets me every time. It's the part where I lose it.
Sandra Bullock's character---her mom dies. And she is getting stuff ready for the funeral, and she does that with her mom's clothes. Oh, it just makes me cry every time.

Gigi said...

listen pokey...you do have that...i totally cry every time i see that red dress...lol!!! hes out there i promise it just takes time...and now i am going to throw away all your brownies...look over your shoulder right now.....

Tracy said...

My goodness, you're sounding very down today. Do you know what always makes me feel better when I'm down....peanut butter brownies. And thanks to you, now I want a frippin brownie.
Pokey, you do deserve all of the things you talked about. And even though I have no idea what you look like, I think you're a beautiful person. And even if it's not with Loverboy, there is someone out there who is going to love your freakin socks off! Don't give up..Can I have a brownie now?

Chris said...

Peanut Butter Brownies?? I'd comment on the rest...'cause I think I had a comment...but you lost me at Peanut Butter brownies!!!

Pokey Puppy said...

thanks guys you are so sweet.. and yea tracy it was a depresing night all the sudden. As for the PB brownies.. they are my fav. and my ultimate depresed treat. HOWEVER>... let me amend that thank you.... that was to everyone BUT GIGI... for all you who were not in my house last night (namely everyone but gigi) as i was reading her coment... i took the bait.. looked over my shoulder.. and she THREW AWAY THE LAST FOUR BROWNIES!!!!!! I mean seriously. Who throws a girls pb brownies away when shes in a mood like that... all right gig... i get it.. you did it because of the way i was feeling about myself and that they were not helping.. i love ya for it... but seriously... dont touch my brownies again!!

Gypsy Queen said...

You guys get peanut butter in your brownies?!?!? I've never heard of that! We only have chocolate. My whole life (the dessert eating portion) feels like a (slight) lie. I'm debating leaving work early to hunt for some of these brownies (and because I don't feel like being here). Damn the man!

Pokey Puppy said...

hey gypse.. you use regular brownies... poar them into a pan... put some pb in a bowl and heat it in the microwave... then poar on the brownies in lines kinda... run a nife or spatula through it to spread pb down and around and to look good and bake as normal.. wala.. pb brownies!!